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Yes, I know a period of silence. What has happened? Has she lost two stone? Has she disappeared entirely? Has she found the secret of weight loss whilst still been able to eat?
Has she 'eck.........................!
Work has somewhat overtaken life recently. I had this mad wild thought that starting a new job and a diet would be a great combination. I had of course forgotten how totally loony the first three months are and I am so knackered that eating the first thing that comes to hand is the easiest. Now I can hear you say, 'well obviously that is fine as Kate is only buying healthy foods and so the first thing that comes to hand will be fine!' Yes in theory, but I can make fattening food out of celery and carrots. Believe me it is an art form that I have spent years practicing.
HOWEVER
I have lost half a kilo. Why? Paul went to Parisfor five days. So I have decided it is officially his fault I put on weight!!!!!!!
I have been reading a new book recommended by Sarah at work. The Schwarzbein Principle by Diane Schwarzbein. Makes quite a lot of sense. Her theory is that you cannot lose weight until you are healthy. So you have to work on healing your body first and then it will lose weight for you. Unfortunate healing my body involves cutting out all the crap. If I do this I will lose weight anyway! The one interesting thing I have found from it though is that my hormones may be responsible for my weight gain in certain places. Yes that HUGE set of tyres around my middle. So I am going to have a hormone analysis and find out if the old you know what is on the way. Oh hurrah, not only overweight but menopausal as well. Paul may very well be looking for a spare room if anyone wants to offer. Don't you feel sorry for him? I do.
So a little update to say I will get back on the straight and narrow. I will succeed. Not sure how at the moment. Anyone know a good lipo surgeon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to thank all my wonderful friends who keep sending me ideas and lovely things to inspire me. These both came from Clare, the second link is truly wonderful, as Clare said maybe a little soppy, but hey who cares!!!........... Please keep them coming!
http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.co.uk/dsef07/t5.aspx?id=8130&filmno=2
As you have probably realised, this is not going well, hence the silence!
I bought a new pair of scales and I am 1.5kgs heavier than when I started. Explain that one to me!
It would appear that this weight has no thought of shifting and my job has been so busy that my main focus has been on work for the last 10 days.
I obviously need to bite the bullet and do the one thing in the world that I hate the most. EXERCISE. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
The skipping rope has proved evasive, they don't seem to sell them here, or not where I have looked. So I need to have a major talk with myself and do something. The problem is I am so knackered that doing anything Monday to Friday is almost out of the question and this weekend I have slept and slept. Why doesn't brain power lose calories, I would be the size of Skinny Posh if that was the case!!!!
Not defeated, just somewhat knocked back.
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I have today realised that with a busy busy time at work, everything else just goes to ground. So no yogurt in the fridge as I have been away since Sunday and this mornings breakfast was a mouldy old banana!
Massively hungry by lunchtime so give in to toasted cheese and ham (AKA as tosta mista here and everyone eats them!) but I could have had a tuna something or another if I wasn't sooooooo hungry thanks to missing breakfast.
Tonight, really tried hard and cooked chicken paprika, nice Delia recipe, but consumed a bottle of white wine as I was still hungry and spent most of tonight fantasising about chocolate that wasn't in the cuboard as I gave it all away to Lili!!!!!!!!!!!! How much do I wish I had hung onto some of it...??
Really need to focus and get on with it. Need to organise a meal plan this week which I haven't as I have been away for two nights and then came home last night knackered.
So help needed to rally me into not giving up........................................Sad isn't it, only 3 weeks of trying to be so diciplined, have lost nothing and feel that I have gone totally backwards in the last three days. You really can see that by Feb 1st loads of people give up the new regime.
I AM DETERMINED NOT TO BE ONE OF THEM BUT NEED SOME HIDDEN STRENGTH FROM SOMEWHERE........................................................
Pissed of person going to bed................................................. :-(
That would be me, the miserable failure.
I have been away for two days on work. Sunday started badly when a pizza SCREAMED at me from the menu to be eaten. OK so I didn't have dinner, but, 8 slices of pepperoni spicy cheese probably isn't on anyone's diet - aside from the I want to be a fat pig diet.................
The rest is Darren's fault. Well actually Jan his wife. She got the brandy out at dinner on Monday night up on the Silver Coast. I have felt like s**t today and have scoffed every fat laden calorie to balance a god awful hangover. Oh well, if you are going to blow it, at least do it spectacularly.
Stringent measures required tomorrow and new scales as I have officially become Kate Moss or Calista Flockhart's sister. My scales said I weigh 4kg. Yes, no zero missing 4kgs. On the basis my boobs weigh this alone, I know that I should not be celebrating, but assume the scales are wrong.
C'est La Vie, we knew this would be tough, but as Scarlett said.
Tomorrow is another day. Just need Rhett Butler now.................. :-)
Off to bed with peppermint tea!
Night Night xxx
